Living on the eve of a new dawn… and not being able to stop that sunrise!

The Dawn!

The Dawn!

They always say that

“One never knows what they have got until it is gone.”

This is not and has not usually been the case for me. Nope. Instead, i can see that things are really good right now and they are changing and the changes are not ideal. I realize when i am living in one of the apex’es of my life… On the verge of a new, darker dawn. A time where things are now as intelligent and as open as they may ever be. I can see a new dawn before me, yet i am still standing in yesterday or what is today.

It is a strange feeling to be living in what feels more like a memory than the now. Usually when i think of the right now… it feels exciting and innovative and current. But sometimes it feels like the now is the yesterday or yesteryear. The golden era that once was… the good ol’ days. And it feels like right now is actually part of the past because I know what the future is looking like.

Usually when i have this kinda like reverse deja vous, it makes me very melancholy and i just wish i could push that button on that stopwatch so I can just stop time before things move into this new outline i see before me. Like a line drawing that is about to be colored in. That is what the future feels like. You know what it is going to be (in its simplest form) and you know what these changes are going to do to the reality that you have grown your life around and into. You know that big things are about to change. Drastically.

The familiar markers that you thought were a part of the landscape that was a permanent fixture of the main picture. You thought that certain infrastructures as a part of the fabric that you have come to count on would be part of that picture forever. That, without that part of the landscape infrastructure, it would or could never survive. That it has relied on these components for so long that you assume that it is and will be like that forever.

I think that this is an optimistic and naive perspective and not surprising from someone who’s generation has never seen the face of a drafted war or famine.

I am sure that all of those jewish people who were just living their lives in Germany, going about their business like they had been doing for generations were caught off guard when all of a sudden their friends and colleges were being harassed and eventually moved into ghettos. They never thought that that would be their reality or that they would not be doing what ancestors had been doing for generations. No, Their reality and future was MUCH much different. They would be fighting for their lives with many of them losing that fight, and the ones that managed to survive, their towns, and their families and communities did not.

My point is this… What if those German Jewish people were able to see what was in store for them before it was actually become a reality? It would make one despondent yet so desperate to try and capture the reality before the darkness. To remember it and keep it with you for always.

But that makes one not really interact within their lives. Because it feels more like interacting with a scene on a set. You cant really dig roots or make any plans for one’s future when that future is so different and unknown. What do you do?

I think this has been how it has been for me for a good portion of my life. At least my adult life. I think that this is EXACTLY why i have never gotten married or had any children and i think it is a huge contributing component to why i have suffered depression so severely over the past 20 years. It can be a never ending downwards free fall of despondence. Along with that guilt and a warm fuzzy feeling of nostalgia.

I guess i am saying that it is a very weird feeling to be having a lifetime apex moment and at the same time being so totally aware that things will never be better than this very moment and you can not hold onto it. It is elusively slipping away as the seconds tick by. It kinda feels a little bit out of body experience.

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Friday night… From the 80’s to now… What you did not know or have forgotten….

Old Romanian made phone

As i was just sitting here dealing with someone who seems to be very flakey, i started going into flashbacks of what it USED to be like to date or make plans with someone.

For those of you too young to remember, society did not always have very socially friendly ways of communicating.  No cordless let alone cel phones, no answering machines or voice mail, Not even redial!  Can you believe that redial was something that was invented SINCE i was born?!!  Unbelievable!!

Technology is moving at such a fast pace that technology gets fully integrated into our lives now within a couple of months.  Sometimes a couple of weeks.  Keeping this in mind, and considering the fact that i am only 38, it just goes to show you how fast technology has become so much a part of our lives… well… lets just say, i would not like to see the younger generation deal with a massive power outage!  They would not know where to go and what to do or even how to contact their friends because no phone numbers these days have to be memorized. Continue reading

Are some holidays and events socially media intertwined more than others?

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Watching the big game on two huge screens in Klaus!!! #superbowl (Photo credit: Eweinhoffer)

I was just sitting here on my bed watching painfully our 9ers play without fire in their bellies and losing badly at the Superbowl.  My computer sits on my lap and i am checking my local blog sites (bernalwood.wordpress.com, CurbedSF.com & the SFist.com).  I decide to go to my blog stats page to see if my theory held up.

My theory was that stats for visits for my posts would be low, just like they were Christmas day.

My Christmas day prediction was wrong and today’s Super Bowl day prediction on visits was also wrong.

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My prediction on Xmas was that there would be a lot of people online viewing blogs and social media sites.  They weren’t.  They in retrospect were of course with family and probably in a food-semi coma.  NOT online.

My prediction for today was similar to what the actual xmas outcome was.  I assumed that people would be at Superbowl parties and at bars across the USA, getting drunk and basically only connecting to the big screen TV and possibly their sattellite that connects to their big screen TV.

 

But i was wrong again.  Views are high on Superbowl Sunday.  Views are low on Christmas.  So, Superbowl Sunday is a social media intertwined event and Christmas is not.  I wonder what the 4th of July will be….

Get the real deal on how safe your passwords are….

 

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password-cracking.jpg (Photo credit: CyberHades)

I just found this really interesting information on how long it takes (right now at least.. Keep in mind that things are constantly getting faster so, in say, 6 months one might be able to cut this in like half….) to crack your passwords.

Think about it and if you are smart, you will keep this in mind when you are making passwords for your accounts.

This was pulled from VentureBeat’s blog. You can find the original post here http://venturebeat.com/2013/02/02/7-reasons-you-cant-take-social-networks-for-granted/

Ok… Get ready for some useful statistics here!..

Graphic processors allow password-cracking programs to work thousands of times faster than they did just a decade ago.

The LinkedIn breach (mentioned above) should by now make us realize that relying on traditional passwords isn’t enough anymore. Investigation-management software provider I-sight provides the following note on how easy it is to crack your password:

Read more at http://venturebeat.com/2013/02/02/7-reasons-you-cant-take-social-networks-for-granted/#biZEp79eKjSoevzR.99

There you have it folks.  Be smart with your private information and make sure you have a really solid password on your accounts.  Now they dont need smart people to figure anything out and do the hard work… They just hit run on an application and wait until it has been cracked.

Sorry folks, My cursed month has continued into…

…and has finally reached my MacBook. My little toshiba was gutted and destroyed by someone calling themselves a friend a couple weeks ago. (Of course… My main one finally breaks 2 weeks after I lose my backup… Cursed I’m telling u!

So, I am hoping to get it fixed in the next day or 2 but, if my curse follows me into December, you may see a lul in my postings. I have not forgotten about all of you dear readers!! Infact I had not realized how much of a theraputic aid it has become to sit down at the machine & write. Just what I need… Another stress relief outlet closed…. (& it is supposed to rain all week so no hiking!:(. I’m gonna have a nervous breakdown if I’m not careful!!)

Anyway, I am doing all I can to be back to u with an opinion and up and running ASAP!!

Thanks for your understanding!

My big vacuum dilema. (Vacuum has got to be one of the worst spelled english words EVER!)

Shark pet perfect hand vacuum

So, i have a friend, and in all good faith, he was trying to help me out by giving me a hand and cleaning up a corner of my room (i had a cold and the trash can was a few feet away.. It seemed to create a tutu of missed trash around the dang can.  I am NOT ever trying out for the WNBA.  Dont worry.  But it was with my left hand in all fairness, but i digress….).  Mind you, this friend took it upon himself to chose to become useful.  I had not asked and in fact i was not even in the room at the time.

Anyway… bless his soul… he tried to do me a solid, however in the process, he managed to throw out the filter to my little (awesome) hand held shark vacuum.  To add insult to injury, he didnt fill me in and in fact, he may not have even known that it was in there, but i in turn, began vacuuming using it with NO filter.  Whatever was being sucked in was being shot right out the side at me.  I heard the motor make a couple not so friendly noises too while taking in the dirt.

Thus leaves me this dilema.  Do i try and find a new filter for the vacuum or do i buy a whole new vacuum?  It shouldn’t be a huge deal for the average person, but i live on a very fixed income being on disability so any $60 has to be well planned and necessary and will usually be sacrificing something else that is  needed.  So, i have to be very thoughtful when it comes to expenditures like this.

However, in the vacuum’s defense, it has been this little trooper that has kept my room the cleanest room in the house and it doesnt kill my back to vacuum.  In fact i have taken a sort of pleasure out of its cheap and easy return.  Kinda like paint… The biggest bang for the buck in construction!  So, to help me to keep the #1 position of awesomeness in the house by having a room people can actually walk barefoot in, i think that this is a qualified emergency necessity expenditure.

So, i found the filter.  The problem is is that i have to buy THREE!  Which makes it over half of the cost of a whole new vacuum.  In a year and a half, i have fastidiously taken a toothbrush (dont worry… i dedicated one to it specifically!) and after every emptying, i would brush the dust out so that it was actually still WHITE when it was disposed of!  In other words, i took good care of it and it had a long life left. …So, what on earth would i do with 3?  The filters i am sure would out last the vacuum!  And we cant forget that the motor has possibly been compromised by the lack of filter that should always be protecting it.  Not to mention that i broke the pet hair attachment months ago (dont ask me how!) so that is not in use either.

Well, after this long verbal brain thought, on paper, i think it is saying to just replace the whole dang thing.  And dont upgrade!  (that is often where i get into trouble.. i say i am just going to replace this and then there is that one that is just a little bit better for an additional $xx.)

So thank you all.  You have officially come along on one of Emelie’s problem solving thought processes.  It was boring as hell wasnt it?  lol!

But, if you have any thoughts of your own on my dilema, please comment!  I am still rolling it around in my head so one good point from someone could possibly tip the scales!

🙂

BTW… GO GIANTS!! TAKING GAME 2 TONITE!!

Are you ready to not want to be having to travel ANYWHERE in the bay this week? Check out everything that has or is happening this week! It is CRAZY!!

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This week is INSANE in the SF bay area, especially San Francisco!  Check out all of the things that bring us to the busiest, craziest week ever!

  • To start off this week, we entered it on Sunday with a blue moon and the start of a heat wave.
  • Columbus day.
  • Americas cup races in the bay.
  • Fleet week
  • 2 Giants playoff games,
  • 1 49er game.
  • Oracle’s anual “company party” which this year is a private Pearl Jam concert on Treasure Island.
  • Hardly strictly bluegrass festival.
  • Castro street fair.
  • Italian heritage parade in N. Beach.
  • Military exercise on Ocean Beach and Lake Merced.
  • Cloud conference at Moscone Center.
  • Florence & the Machine concert at Shorline Amphitheater.
  • Kevin Hart at the Oracle Arena.
  • New Order at the Fox Theater.
  • Cal vs. UCLA at Cal.
  • Justin Bieber at the Oracle Arena.
  • Joe Jackson at Masonic Hall.
  • Lenard Skynyrd at Mountain Winery.

and…

  • Madonna at HP Pavilion.
  • Oh yeah… cant forget the grand west coast opening of UNIQLO in Union Square.

I think that is enough to make anyone who has to get to any of these things to think twice about getting into that auto and driving.  Sheesh.  it makes me nervous having to leave the house to go to the store!  It is just crazy!  And… once again… It is thanks to our dear shitty Mayor Ed Lee making his backroom deals.  He clearly didnt have his filofax with him at this planning meeting!

It will be anything but dull that is one thing i think anyone can count on!

Oh my gosh! I want this so bad!! (and i also want to 25 as well to while i am at it, if i am going to flashback in 2012).

With Kodak going bankrupt (or out of business or something like that.  I know they dont make kodachrome film anymore.) I have been thinking about how sad it is to not have a little envelope / folder thing with a whole roll of film and the strips of negatives.  My box of photos is in the second on the list of what to grab if there is a fire (sorry but the kitty has to be first!).  I love how if you are lucky, there is a date stamped on the back.  I also think about how fun it was when i had my Poloroid camera that shot the long rectangle photos that i took on my second trip to Hawaii.  I loved the smell of those photos.   I loved the waiting anticipation of everyone gathering around to see what the picture was going to develop into.  And i loved that there was a big place to write whatever on the edge of the photo.  I loved those dang Poloroids.  Needless to say i have been mourning the loss of that slowly dying industry for a little while now.  

So, imagine how excited i got when i came across this… on Photojojo.com. (by the way, this is a really cool little company that i stumbled upon that turns out to be based right out of here in San Francisco.  It is a company i am going to keep my eye on.  They find the coolest stuff and i think that they just may have the stuff to make it for the long run.  Watch for a post i am going to be doing regarding a job posting of theirs and you will see kind of what i am talking about.).

It is a DIGITAL POLOROID CAMERA!!!  YIPPEE!!  I am going to be saving all of my loose change and maybe in a while i will be landing my hands on one of my very own!  In the mean time, i am here to share it with you while i am waiting (and preparing for all of the fun and memories i am going to be able to create some day soon!)

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http://photojojo.com/store/awesomeness/polaroid-z340/

This is what Linkedin would have looked like in the late 80’s early 90’s! Funny and pretty spot on!

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I remember in 1986 going to camp and they had a computer class. i was in it for two days until i switched to cooking. Programing DOS at 11 years old was NOT my thing! In fairness, i doubt it would be my thing today either. My brain needs to process more color! …enjoy!

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Macondray Lane

Macondray Lane (Photo credit: rockcreek)

Macondray Lane

Macondray Lane (Photo credit: jrover)

Macondray Lane
Macondray Lane (Photo credit: sabel)

(link) This is like the little perfect dream home on the ‘tales of the city’ street

Gosh how perfect this little home snuggled into Macondray lane in San Francisco.  You know… the one that Mrs.Madrigal lived on!

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