The past month plus has been a very surreal experience for me. Two months ago, i had 2 perfectly working computers. Within 2 weeks I had zero. The last month and a half i have gotten to learn the jump in with both feet kind of learning curve, just how much my life and my anchoring to my life is based through my computer.
I have just been sort of drifting this last month and a half. I have been scattered, disconnected, out of touch and just kinda unhinged through this time. I have also had to do a lot of traveling back and forth to see my dad which really throws off my whole life schedule… but with no computer, no blog, no writing, no photos uploaded, no local news & no easy typing (the reading on my iphone was not ideal at this age either!)… I had nothing to anchor me down and so i just kinda spun.
The first section home between the first and second trip i partied my ass off. Staying up till dawn and just basically partying like i did in my early 20’s. It was fun, but boy oh boy did my room get messed up. I still have not fully recovered from it! All of the packing and unpacking and present wrapping and computer parts and machines in various states of repair has not helped the mess get fixed either though.
The next time i came home, i knew i was not going to party like i had the weeks before. That second period i was home, i tried to get up motivation so i restarted more seriously my exercise plan. Hiking longer and more regularly. It feels a lot better living life with exercise but it did not bring back my motivation. However, i did pick back up… and thanks to my friend Kenny, broke through my block & started drawing again, the first time in many months. It felt good.
The other thing i got back in with was cooking. It is the holidays so i made cookies and fudge and soup and cupcakes. It has been fun and, surprisingly, i have not had an unquenching urge to eat all that i have just cooked. It has been more fun feeding those around me which sure helps my waist line!
I am absolutely rusty and in all honesty, am totally surprised that i did not fuck my macbook up completely. I thought i had. I will go into detail the perils we survived to get us back online in a future post, but, It is late and it may be the end of the world tomorrow and if it is, i dont want to spend it in silly details of the luckiest girl with the toughest laptop in the world and instead tell you all just how much i have missed my place here with you. I have missed the conversations and the points of view. I have missed the friendship and the fantastic attitudes of you all. I am SO glad to be back to writing for you all! Like i said, i was not really thinking that i would have a working laptop tonight, so i have sorta had to wedge my brain back into the thinking and typing mode which has been on hiatus now for a while, but i am ready to start sweeping the cobwebs and getting back to the grind.
On one last note, i leave again Sunday evening for my dads for Christmas. This is awesome and at the same time sad for me because on Christmas eve of this year, it is going to be my little baby kitty Arthur and my one year anniversary. Unfortunately for us both, he will be home alone with my roommates on this day. I think i will be way more saddened on this day than he. But it does make me a little sad that we will not be spending our one year marker together, so for that reason, i am dedicating this posting to him. Here is to another year and as much progress as we have made this for next!
I love you Arthur!