Untitled writing from 2007

Oh no

All alone.

No one to soften my hardend soul.

Knock knock

No one’s there.

No surprise.

No one cares.

Empathy is an extinct notion

I wish someone would put into motion.

Take me from me.

Wound my soul.

Break my heart.

Make me unable to be whole.

Take away my self esteem.

What is left?


Now i am wondering.

Wondering how.

Wondering why.

This mad mess all a lie.

You cant take me.

I wont let you.

My feelings are valued, so,


I was clearly bitter and had been deceived.  That never feels good.  Makes you question everything.  Mostly makes you question your awareness of your own ignorance.  That can be a scary thing.  Nobody wants to be taken.  So all of you… Just remember… Learn from my errors… You can only truly trust one’s actions.  If their words do not match, it is a lot easier to try and believe the words, but they are the first to deceive.  In this day and age, people are usually too lazy to back their lies up with actions, so watch the actions.  They will tell you if the words are real.  If they are, they line up.  If not, as much this may mean the fairy tale is over, they are most likely NOT telling the truth.  Unfortunately.

Note.  I am somewhat jaded now, in my older age of 37, but i am am not as bitter as this writing feels… Thank goodness! 🙂

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Hello. My actual name is Emelie. I am an artist in San Francisco. I started out my early life deep in the Santa Cruz mountains. I left Santa Cruz shortly after graduating High School in 1992 and moved up to the city. I have been in sf ever since and more specifically Bernal Hts. since 2009. I work in a number of mediums usually depending on the space i have to work in. In SF that can vary greatly! I look forward to sharing my thoughts, observations and photos with you all. Hopefully at the very least i will give you a little chuckle once and a while. Thank you for stopping and reading my little blog. I encourage all who stops by to leave comments. I will read them all and appreciate the time you spend with me! Sincerely to you all! Emelie (aka, Bluepearlgirl) To see some of my artwork, please check out www.artwanted.com/emelie ........... Another blogger Mskatiekins sums my blog up pretty well... here is what she said.... "BluePearlGirl’sWorld – This is one diverse blog. This sassy gal tackles big issues as well as posting funny and uplifting little pick-me-ups. I’d love to learn more about you and your art/creativity!"

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